i am conscious of changes and developing skill because i am feeling more coherence and flow of actions.

performing online, i am immediately seeing in the video the effect of what i am doing. i am creating for the camera. when i am co-practicing with someone online, i am not looking at the screen.

i have also videotaped rehearsals in studio and performances AFK (away from keyboard), but i rarely go back to the visual footage. I trust what happened in the moment.

with online the visual is compelling because i'm seeing myself. live in studio i don't use a mirror. i navigate via kinaesthetic sensation. the online work is weighted toward the visual. that is helping me create work for the camera, but doesn't help me in the live in-person AFK audience experience.

I worry sometimes that i will bring my online visual sense to the live AFK performance space. i see these as two very different worlds and i need my live AFK awareness when sharing space with audience.

the bonus is that i miss being with audiences so much that i feel it will heighten my awareness in the performative state. i will feel i will not miss an opportunity to be with people, I will be more ready than i have ever been.

I still have no idea of the full scope and possibilities - I don’t know how to work code. I know what steps to be taken but I am really relying on the AR designer, the video designer, the sound designer to really put this thing together, but they are really looking to me to create that artistic vision of what the project is going to be... (from Conversations 2021)

...for us at the CM (choreographic marathon) this is critical to consider....

If I were to bring in all my dancers online for the week and say “this is the task for this week, what are the tasks we do in the studio? What are we good at in the studio, what are we not good at? Maybe working online could compensate for something that we aren’t good at in the studio. (From conversations 2021)