Where does impulse live in all this?
My initial impulse for dance online is "hmmm..., let's see see what this is about". Recently I watched a few dance performances online. The performances were visually appealing and the performers skilled. I appreciated the ability to stop and replay moments that I wanted to re-experience. But I missed the feeling of presence - of being there. My impulse was to be be part of the audience and feel the excitement of the room; to take in the sounds of the room - the sounds of people settling themselves; to suffer latecomers being ushered to their seats; to witness concession staff pedaling over-priced ice cream bars, water and wine; to feel the thrill of that fleeting moment of silence just before the performance begins.
My intuition tells me to accept what is.
what is the difference between impulse and intuition?
The impulse is the inclination, the tendency, or excitation toward an unpremeditated action. (of the body)
The intuition is apprehension, insight, power of direct knowledge without rational thought or inference. (of the mind)
online inspires new impulses as a i relearn how to communicate across devices.
for me the impulse is always in the body. i feel my impulses are different online because i'm alone in my room, my impulses are greatly affected by being with other human bodies as I have a history of social anxieties and I'm just generally magnetized by other human beings.
at home i'm surrounded by plant and digital device bodies, and i'm more influenced by my archive of papers and books here. the impulses are in closer proximity to the charge of the material layers when I am at home.
when i am working live, i am still in relation to my material archive, but it is at a distance. i write about the archive in this section because i believe that while the body is the locus of the impulse, the archive is the weight, the channel, the blueprint, the metonym for the history in my body that I carry with me everywhere I go.
The online device has 2 functions that influence in different ways: the camera, and the screen.
If I designate the camera as witness, then the impulse is centred in me, or the others moving.
How about what happens when I designate the Screen the centre of the creation- it receives the offerings of movement and the parameters of screen-itself-as-place-where-the-performance-happens determine at that moment what the creation becomes. (some of it pre determined? (ie what the machine/app can do; post determined? in editing?)
The impulse lives in the soul. When we create work it's like: "How do we keep this body moving? How do we keep this material moving?" It's not "how do we make a museum archive". No. It is now. It's the soul. (from Conversations 2021)
and...The transition that is needed for online... how do I put my soul into this eye, this camera, that is watching me? How do I make this screen to accommodate my movement as being at home?… (from Conversations 2021)
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